Until about two or three years ago I rarely, if ever, read nonfiction. However, as time passes I find myself more and more interested in it. This read I picked up through the Insightout Book Club. It was actually part of an automatic shipment that I forgot to decline, and I figured I would keep it when I discovered the other book in the shipment was one I wanted anyway. I’m very pleased that I decided to keep it, because I ended up reading this book first.
Bronson Lemer is a former soldier with the National Guard who just six months shy of completing his commitment to the Guard, he is sent to serve in Iraq for a year. As a gay man under the Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell policy, he has to keep his sexuality a secret or face ostracism and possible discharge from the military.
I thought the book was brilliantly written. Lemer does not focus solely on being a gay man in the military. In fact, there are times when I forget that he IS gay, because he discusses the life any solider faces when they are serving in a foreign country. He is often not a gay man, but a young man who with each passing day finds he does not want to be in the military, a young man who questions his country’s motives for sending him to Iraq, and a young man who just wants to be at home with friends and family. He wonders what he could possibly do to help the country when he can’t even help a woman get help for her injured son.
When Lemer does discuss being a gay man in the military, I found it very insightful. He discusses how he at first tries to live two separate lives: one as a gay man, and one as a solider, but finds it increasingly difficult to separate the two. It is no wonder any man or woman coming back from service finds it difficult to connect to someone. They are so far removed from situations like that, that it must be foreign to them.
There are many flashbacks to Lemer’s childhood and other times while he talks about his experiences in Iraq. Things that remind him of other events lead to little anecdotes about something else. This style of writing makes it more conversational, and therefore more readable. A few times throught the book, he also adds short letters he either wrote or drafted in his head to his ex-boyfriend, a man he is talking to at the beginning of the book who he was convinced he still loved. These personal touches let me see even more into the man that the author is.
The book is alternately hilarious and depressing. When he is talking about the men he lives with and how their tent comes to be known as The Gas Chamber, I was laughing hysterically. Then a few short chapters later I quickly sobered when I read the end of the “Vets” chapter.
Seeing the fans, I can’t help but think about how most people view veterans. Once a year, we march the veterans out, parading them around towns, saluting their achievements, honoring what they’ve done for this country. But once that day is over, we no longer need them to remind us of why we’re Americans, we forget about them; they simply become old men sitting on bar stools and complaining about loud music.
I had to stop after reading that paragraph for a bit because it made me think about how I have celebrated Veteran’s Day in the past, or how I treat my grandfather when he goes on about the wars and what he’s done in the past.
By the end of the book, I want to know more about Lemer. I want to know more about his time in Iraq, what he’s doing now, and if he’s found someone to love. I wonder if any of the men in his platoon ever figured out he was gay, or if he would tell them if he saw them again. I also wonder what happened to the men he served with. Through his story, I not only go to know him, but the other men, and their stories affected me just as much.
This is an excellent read, and one everyone should read. It reveals the difficulties of a gay man serving under Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, the trials of an American solider in Iraq at the start of the war, and how quickly men become brothers in a difficult situation.
You can buy this book here from Amazon.